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Saturday, January 28, 2006
BESTFRIENDS.....
hay......
last week...
one of my friends was able to patch things up with her best friend....
you see, they had this fight.....and they didn't talk for quite some time....
the reason??no one knows....things just sort of happened....they just stopped talking...
and then one of them texted the other, and....
well, now they're back to being bestfriends...
and it made me think about me and my bestfriend...
we haven't been classmates since sixth grade and things have definitely changed between us...
as in sobrang.....
parang di na kami magkakilala...!
she never tells me any secrets anymore,yung mga tipong ako lang talaga yung nakakaalam....
masama pa don, minsan nauuna pang makaalam yung mga friends lang nya kaysa sakin about the stuff that's going in with her...
diba parang ang pangit???
bestfriend ka and yet you know nothing about her...
it's like, all of a sudden, we were this two very different people, going to different paths...
and it seems as if those paths would never cross again...
it makes me feel really sad....
sayang kasi yung pinagsamahan....
antagal na naming magkaibigan, tapos, paganun-ganun lang, wala na lahat....
hindi ko alam kung pano nakarating sa ganitong sitwasyon ang pagkakaibigan namin....
hindi talaga....
is it because i didn't have enough time for her?
is it because everytime i try to tell her something she never listens?
or could it be,
that we simply grew apart...?
is that even possible?
for two very close friends to grow apart just like that?
......where did we go wrong?
.............hay.................
my bestfriend and i call each other 'bestfriend'...
other bestfriends call each other 'bhie' or 'beshi'....
but i like 'bestfriend'...
it's simple, parang hindi nga pinagisipan eh,
pero nandun na lahat...
tipong 'mahal', na karaniwang ginagamit ng mga magboyfriend.....
it's simple, but it says everything....
ngayon,
we still call each other 'bestfriend'....
but i feel like it has lost it's meaning...
parang, tinatawag nalang namin ang isa't isa na 'bestfriend' for the sake of calling each other 'bestfriend'...
ewan....
something seems to be broken between us....
i dunno if it can be fixed....
but.....
well.....
let's hope it can be fixed....
Foxy
12:38 PM
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Thursday, January 26, 2006
what's on my mind????
NOTHING.
ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.
ZERO.
ZILCH.
ZIP.
GOOSE EGG.
CYPHER.
N.O.T.H.I.N.G.
my mind is so empty right now that it hurts....
i can't think of anything to write about.....
which is a shame because i like to write....
grrrrrrrr.......
oh wait.....
my coconut shell.....
i think it's working........
wait for it....
wait for it....
aha!!!!!!!!
i know what i can write about...!!!!!!
okay....
today, i was finally called to go infront of our class do an impromptu speech...
the question:
'Do you believe in soulmates?'
my answer:
... i do.....
i think that He loves us enough to make sure that we have someone to grow old with...
someone who understands us, not only because you guys know each other well,
but beacuse you two are deeply connected in your hearts and souls...
and i also believe that one's soulmate is not automatically of the opposite sex...
it could be anyone....
your bestfriend....
your teacher...
your neighbor......
anyone.....
so yes, i do believe in soulmates....
that's all..
thank you...
yan mismo yung sagot ko....
heheh...
i wonder what my soulmate is doing right at this very moment.....
is he/she busy looking for me????
well....
he/she should be.....
coz i'm worth all the trouble....
heheheheh...
just kidding..
hay......
still not good enough....
ayaw talaga gumana nung utak ko.....
waaaaaa......
Foxy
4:12 PM
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Tuesday, January 24, 2006
i'm back...
alam nyo kasi, ako'y nandito sa shop namin...
nagbabantay ng mga tumatawag sa manila, ng mga bumibili ng ice cream namin, at naghahanap ng panukli every now and then...
tapos...
tapos............
tinitignan ko din kung may nagcomment na sa huling entry ko sa blog ko na pinost ko noong 2:29 pm...
pero so far wala pa...
pero anyway....
i wanted to talk about something...
as in i'm like super excited to talk about this....
okaaaaaaaaaay.....
control.....
control yourself super_cutie....
kasi...
i plan to take mass communication pagdating ko sa college...
and i thought,
what better university to study mascom than......
ta-daaaa!!!!!
U.P.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but there's a problem...
1.) i'm not sure if i can pass the UPCAT...
(i know alot of smart people who failed it...including my two very able brothers...)
2.) i live in Cavite... so it's like really far from UP diliman....so if i pass the test and decide to go
there, i'd have to live with my grandparents (because they live near there) and the thing is,
i don't want to live with them even if that's the smartest, most convenient, and sensible thing
to do.....because they're both smart people, and i know that i'll be under pressure every
freakin' day of my life if i live there...and i don't like pressure....
and because of those reasons, i gave up on the idea of going there even if i passed the UPCAT...
i decided i'd go to UST instead..
until today...
i was able to chat with our class adviser today because one of our teachers were absent...
i asked her where she went to college...
and she said...
hold your breath people...
she went to UP!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think i screamed when she said that...
sabi nya, 3rd yr na daw sya...
tapos pinauwi sya sa probinsya ng parents nya kasi naging aktibista sya...
basta ang porma nung kwento nya.... as in naelibs ako ng husto......
at eto pa pala, creative writing ang course nya!!!
sobrang nainspire ako.......
ngayon, gusto ko na uli magUP!!!!
nakakaloka talaga!!!!
as in tumaas ng husto yung tingin ko sakanya...
grabe...
she's the best!!!!
i hope you're reading this mam mae, because every word i've said here about you is true, and because i am truly in awe of you......i love you mam!!!! {^_^}
Foxy
4:12 PM
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let me tell you an ironic story....
this morning,
at about 5 am,
i was gathering all my things for school...
then, i thought
"which bag should i use?"
i knew that it didn't have to be a big bag
because we're only gonna be in school for half of the day...
i also knew that i couldn't use a pouch bag because i did bring notebooks to school...
then i thought
"magsasummer na...dapat yung medyo pang-beach yung dating.."
and aha!
i found the perfect bag!!!
it could fit all my necessities and it had a Boracay vibe going on....
so i used it...
and at about 11 pm,
rain started falling....
so much for 'magsusumer na'...
but you know, i like the rain...
sabi dun sa pinapanood kong anime dati,
"the rain cleans the world"
and i do believe that...
but it's not my reason for liking the rain...
i like the rain because it has a romantic feel to it...
before, whenever it rained, i'd think to myself
"something romantic will happen to me today.."
but romantic things didn't happen to me when it rained...
it didn't...
and yet, i never stopped liking the rain for making me feel all gooey inside...
because i believe that somewhere in the world, there are couples celebrating their love for each other while raindrops are falling from the sky....
awwwww.........
Foxy
2:29 PM
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Sunday, January 22, 2006
adding some bling to your blog ain't eazy!!!!!!!!!
waaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!
Foxy
12:47 PM
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Saturday, January 21, 2006
life....
seeing someone from your past is...
is...
is so surreal...
especially if that someone meant a lot to you...
the moment that i found out that he was gonna be there....
my stomach went crazy....
it felt like it was turning and turning and....
it was as if there were little knots forming in there...
you know how you feel when you're about to go onstage to perform infront of an audience??
that's how it felt....
when he finally arrived...
i couldn't look, i couldn't say hi, i could barely smile at him...
it was weird because even if that chapter of my life is closed,
even if i have moved on to other people,
i still kinda felt the same...
i still couldn't look him straight in the eye....(and i tried, i really did!!!!)
i still couldn't say a single sentence to him without stammering and messing up the words....
it was like i still had feelings for him...
and on the way home, i could NOT stop talking about him...
"ang galing nya mag-gitara noh?!"
"parang iba na yung itsura nya!!"
i mean, what is that all about???
do i still have feelings for him?
bakit ganun????
di ako mapakali....
kasi naisip ko lang,parang ang panget naman na sya nakapagmove on na,
(and my sources do say that he's got someone special na)
samantalang ako....
still hung up on him....
para namang adik na adik ako dun sa taong yun...
at di na ako makahanap ng mas astig pa sakanya...
and then i remembered this very memorable line from one of my favorite local movies...
"once you love someone, you never stop loving him.. maybe a little differently or a little less, but you never stop loving him..."
and you know what?
i did love him....
and i guess i'll continue loving him until i'm old and grey....
but until then, sa ating muling pagkikita,
my Mr. January....{^_^}
Foxy
6:43 PM
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if i was given a chance to go to any place right at this moment,
i would choose to go to Japan...
because i absolutely love everything about Japan!!!!!!
and i mean everything!!!!
i love their language...
there's just something about it that sounds so good to me...
like music to my ears...
whenever i hear japanese people talking in their native tongue,
i listen to them even if i don't understand it..
and the names!!!
ang porma pakinggan ng japanese names...
i swear,pag nagka-anak ako, japanese name ang ipapangalan ko...
i love it..
i love the people...
they're such beautiful people...
i like the way they dress because it's so fun...
they mix vibrant colors and different textures of fabric and what you end up with is a very japanese pop ensemble....
ang porma...
oh and the guys!!!!!
they're all so cute!!!!
they all look like anime characters with the hair and all...
hay.....
i love it...
i love their animes....
ang astig kasi nung mga plot nung mga anime nila eh..
may comedy...
at may romance...(my favorite combo!!!)
and i gotta tell ya, it wasn't just once that i absolutely fell head over heels inlove with a chartoon character..
ang pogi kasi nung mga lead characters dun!!!
and you know what, i am actually listening to an anime song right now...!
a favorite of me and my kuya..
equal romance from Ranma 1/2...
i love it...
and finally, i love the place itself...
once again, there's just something about it that i really love..
the atmosphere of the place seems so amazing...
oh! and i love the cherry blossoms....
i wanna see one before i die...
i mean, c'mon, have you ever seen a pink tree????
i haven't...
but i love it....
i actually have this theory that in my past life, i was a japanese...
because even though i've never been to the place before, i love it from the depths of my soul...
Japan....
Japan....
aishiteru...
Foxy
9:17 AM
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it went well....
i had to use my mini-mini-myni-moe skills on some questions but i think i did relatively good...
anyway....
you remember my chocolate-freak friend?
well guess what??
he talked to me yesterday!!!!!
and i...
being the ice queen that i am...
totally ignored him...
coz i realized,that i am NOT a bad person...
and that i didn't deserve that kind of treatment...
Foxy
9:00 AM
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Thursday, January 19, 2006
no really, am i?
coz it sure seems like it...
i like chocolates.
my seatmate likes chocolates.
today, we both had our own chocs for different reasons..
we first ate hers..
then mine.
one of my guy friends saw that we were eating, and asked for some.
since there were only five pieces of my chocolate,
i gave one to my other friend,two to my seatmate(because i felt like i owed her some)
and i decided to have the last two for myself-because, after all, it was mine.
and he got mad.
and i mean really mad.
he told me never to ask anything from him ever again.
then i remembered how i asked stuff from him all the time.
i decided to make peace with him by giving him some of my chocolate candies.
i hugged him from behind and said sorry while showing him the candies.
then,he threw me off him...
he was so strong that i almost fell.
i was so shocked.
and humiliated.
i went back to my seat wanting to burst into tears.
i know that it was partly my fault becuse i could have shared the last piece with him,
but was that really deserved?
i tried not to show how i felt and tried to be happy but i couldn't.
my day was ruined.
and that's only the beggining.
the seatmate that i shared my chocolates with,
well, she forgot her hankerchief this morning.
and she was one of those people who couldn't survive without one.
during our last subject, she was complaining how she was sweating so much.
i offered her my hanky.
she refused.
she complained again.
i offered again.
she took my hanky and threw it on the floor.
i didn't get it.
i didn't.
and for the second time today,
i wanted to cry...
and i thought,
was that really deserved?
so am i a bad person?
am i?
coz they made me feel like one.
they really did.
Foxy
1:47 PM
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Wednesday, January 18, 2006
and the thing is, i'm never quiet nor serious....(at least not that often especially when i'm at school)
the reason....
i'm not quite sure...
you see...
some stuff were happening to some of my friends..
and...
i just thought....
bakit sakin walang nangyayari???
it's the same things everyday...
the same people....
there's no spice!!!
no thrill!!!!
it's the same boring things every freakin' day...
i just felt quite bad about it...
because i see the people around me and things are happening to them...
yun...hanggang pagdating ko sa service tahimik ako...
and then natulog ako habang bumabyahe...
coz i like to sleep..
and i always sleep..
an hour or so later,i woke up and i felt better.
i really did!!!
nakalimutan ko yung pagkabagot ko sa buhay ko..
kulang lang pala ako sa tulog...{^_^}
Foxy
6:49 PM
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Tuesday, January 17, 2006
during the past few weeks,whenever i got the chance, i played a certain internet game....
a good one...
it's just so fun for me...
i really like it...
infact,i like it so much, that during one lazy afternoon, i wrote a poem about it...
nude you are from the beggining
from top to bottom there is nothing
usually jamming to lonely song
and sure enough you're all alone
you'll be tap, tap, tapping the key
(the wrong ones probably)
though frustrated and annoyed you'll be
you'll sure be back
to try another track
with a lil' patience and the right timing
you'll be surprised at how good you're getting
and one by one the numbers will go up
by then you'll want to be dressed up
so to the item shop you go
buying whatever fancies you so
but you'll have to watch you're cash
or they'll be gone in just a flash
then back to jamming you'll be
and with enough guts to compete with strangers you'll see
but beware of the rooms you'll go into
for there'll be monsters out there to beat you
and surprised you sure will be
for when the music starts
songs you knew from the past
will be 2 or 3 times as fast
yes,the tapping will continue
and in the process meeting people you never knew
and though the songs are all the same,
you'll never get tired of playing the game
for you will want to be number 1
in the awesome world of O2 jam!!!
(hehehe...wala lang....trip lang........{^_^})
Foxy
4:24 PM
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Saturday, January 14, 2006
wow......
Been a long time since i blogged....
i actually thought that my blog account would expire...
guess not.....
actually,ayoko na sanang magblog pa,kaya lang......
may nagcomment kasi dun sa second kong post eh....
and natuwa ako....
i was reminded why i wanted to blog in the first place...
so that people can read my thoughts,be a part of my life, and know more of who i am....
september pa since i last posted....
and a lot has happened since then...
tinatamad nakong isulat pa lahat ng nangyari mula nun eh....
so i'll tell you about yesterday nalang.........
OH.
MY.
GOSH.
I found the perfect prom dress!!!!!!!!!!
i got the latest issue of my favorite magazine last night and....
OH.
MY.
GOSH.
I FOUND THE PERFECT PROM DRESS!!!!!!
grabe,napasigaw talaga ako nung nakita ko yun.....
dalawa yung nagustuhan ko actually, pero mas gusto ko na yung isa...
it's not something that i could buy anywhere here in the philippines,it's something a hollywood
actress wore at an event...
so,it's actually the perfect design that found....
but anyway,it really is so very perfect...
di ko na babanggitin kung anong magazine, and kung cnong artista yung may suot nun....
bka may gumaya pa eh...
heheheheheheh...
speaking of prom.....
my mom asked me -again- kung sino yung balak kong i-date sa prom..
and sinabi ko sakaya -AGAIN- na i'm planning to go alone.
ayoko ng date...
yuck.
i think a date would only slow me down.
it's not like i'm not romantic or anything...
it's just that i believe prom should be a night of having fun with your bestfriends and dancing your butt off...
think about it,
kung may date ka, you'll feel obliged to spend the rest of the night with that one person,
imbis na maisayaw mo lahat ng tropa mong lalaki....
diba????
what a perfect waste of a perfect prom dress.....!
and even if i had a boyfriend, i'd refuse to spend the whole night with him..
sayang naman...
minsan ko na nga lang makitang nakaporma ng husto yung mga tropa kong lalaki eh,
di ko pa sila maisasayaw........
hay.....
i'm really excited for prom.....
sana mag fourth year na ko......{^_^}
Foxy
4:12 PM